If it makes you feel better, you can tell me to screw off if you want to refuse anything, but I hope you won't because I really want to show you how to live." - Andrew Parrish
J.A. RedmerskiIt's the people y'gotta watch out for. You never know who y'might meet, or what Ol' Man Fate has in store for yah.
J.A. RedmerskiI tried to will them with my super mental powers so he’d put them around my waist, but apparently I had no super mental powers.
J.A. RedmerskiParents have this twisted belief that anyone under the age of about twenty simply can’t know what love is, like the age to love is assessed in the same way the law assesses the legal age to drink. They think that the ‘emotional growth’ of a teenager’s mind is too underdeveloped to understand love, to know if it’s ‘real’ or not.
J.A. RedmerskiI’m not a follower. I never have been. But I’ll definitely become someone I’m not for a few hours if it’ll make me blend in rather than make me a blatant eye sore and draw attention.
J.A. RedmerskiYou were the missing piece of my soul, the breath in my lungs, and the blood in my veins.
J.A. RedmerskiI believe there’s someone out there for everyone,” he {Isaac} says, “and when you meet that person, sometimes you know right away they are who you were meant to be with. And sometimes, years can go by before you let yourself believe that the feeling you’ve had about a person for so long, is actually love. And what a waste that is.
J.A. RedmerskiI say that I'm not into you like that, Camryn, because..," he pauses, searching my face, looking at my lips for a moment as if deciding whether or not he should kiss them again, "...because you're not the girl I could only sleep with once.
J.A. RedmerskiShe sticks her tongue out at me and crosses her eyes. Not sure why that made me want to do her in the backseat, but to each his own, I guess.
J.A. RedmerskiI have never lived the way I lived during my short time with you. For the first time in my life, I’ve felt whole, alive, free. You were the missing piece of my soul, the breath in my lungs, the blood in my veins. I think that if past lives are real then we have been lovers in every single one of them. I’ve known you for a short time, but I feel like I’ve known you forever
J.A. RedmerskiThe moment you tell someone else is the moment you become a whiner and the world’s smallest violin starts to play. The truth is, we all have problems; we all go through hardships and pain, and my pain is paradise compared to a lot of people’s and I really have no right to whine at all.
J.A. RedmerskiI love the smell of Waffle House; it's the smell of freedom, being on the open road and knowing that ninety percent of the people eating around you are also on that road. Truck driver's, road-trippers, hangovers--those who don't live that monotonous life of society slavery.
J.A. RedmerskiThis goes against everything that I am, Sarai," he says and then kisses me. "No, it doesn't," I whisper and kiss him back. "It's you becoming more of who you really are.
J.A. RedmerskiI don't know myself. I don't know what I want or how I feel or how I should feeland I don't think I ever really have.
J.A. RedmerskiI think it was the one thing I didn’t like about him or about guys in general: when a girl says she doesn’t want to talk about it, the truth is that she usually does. I wanted him to pry it out of me. Of course, I would’ve pretended to be a little angry that he didn’t just leave me alone, but eventually I would’ve told him, when I was tired of pretending.
J.A. RedmerskiThere is a stark difference between fear and uncertainty, Sarai. You fear nothing but are uncertain of everything.
J.A. RedmerskiI run behind her, letting her stay a few steps ahead of me so if she happens to fall I’ll be there to laugh at her first and then help her up afterwards.
J.A. RedmerskiAnd when someone grows up knowing so little of what real love feels like, whether from family, or friends, or the love of a companion, that person starts to believe that they weren’t meant to be loved, that good things will never happen to them. They start to believe that whenever something good does happen, it’s inevitable that something bad will come along to replace it.
J.A. RedmerskiTime is cruel like life. It slows down so that you can truly experience the worst moments of it. Only if you make it through them do you get to say ‘It all happened so fast.
J.A. RedmerskiOur story is over, yes, but our journey isn't, because we'll always live on the edge until the day we die.
J.A. RedmerskiIt’s not only about sadness. In truth, sadness really has little to do with it. Depression is pain in its purest form and I would do anything to be able to feel an emotion again. Any emotion at all. Pain hurts, but pain that’s so powerful that you can’t feel anything anymore, that’s when you start to feel like you’re going crazy.
J.A. RedmerskiThere was no logic or any sense of purpose except that I knew I had to do something other than what I was doing, or I might not make it through this.
J.A. RedmerskiWhen we pull away, he rests his hand on my thigh pressed next to his and we ride like that for a long time; the only time he moves his hand is to take better control of a sharp curve or to adjust the music, but he always puts it right back. And I always want him to.
J.A. RedmerskiI have to live and make my own choices, my own mistakes. You have to let me be me, even if i suck at it sometimes." - Adria
J.A. RedmerskiMaybe you should get rid of me,” I whisper onto his lips. “Never,” he says, kissing me once softly. “You’re mine for as long as you breathe.
J.A. RedmerskiBut the heart has a mind of its own and it always gets what it wants, especially when it's dying.
J.A. RedmerskiI think that if past lives are real then we have been lovers in every single one of them. I've known you for a short time, but I feel like I've known you forever.
J.A. RedmerskiWhy does everybody have to be with somebody? It’s a stupid delusion and a really pathetic way of thinking.
J.A. RedmerskiI promise to love you forever in this life and wherever we go in the afterlife, because I know I can't go on in any life unless you're in it too.
J.A. RedmerskiYou’re the world to me,” I whisper onto her lips. “I hope you never forget that.” “I’ll never forget,” she whispers back.. “But if I ever do, for whatever reason, I hope you’ll always find a way to remind me.” ...“Always.
J.A. RedmerskiI'm not sure what it is that I want, but I feel it deep in the pit of my stomach. It's there sitting dormant. I'll know it when I see it.
J.A. RedmerskiWell, I suppose he’s stuck with you forever then.” “Yes, and forever is a very long time.” He pauses and then says, “Well, for the record, something tells me he wouldn’t have it any other way.
J.A. RedmerskiI don’t know what I’m doing, or where I’m going, but I do know that I want to do whatever it is and get there soon.
J.A. RedmerskiIt’s like irresistible poison: I’m mesmerized by the way it’s making me feel though it has the potential to crush my soul and I drink it down anyway.
J.A. RedmerskiAndrew..,' I shake my head, tears rolling my cheeks, '... it was always you," I whisper harshly. 'Even with Ian, I felt something was missing. I told you, that night in the field; I told you that...,' My voice trails. I smile and say, 'you are my partner in crime. I've known that for a long time.
J.A. RedmerskiYesterday I thought about why I felt the need to get up at exactly the same time as the day before and do everything I did the day before. Why? What compels any of us to do the things we do when deep down a part of us just wants to break free from it all?
J.A. RedmerskiJust that dwelling and planning is bullshit, you dwell on the past, you can’t move forward. Spend too much time planning for the future and you just push yourself backwards, or you stay stagnant in the same place all your life. Live in the moment, where everything is just right, take your time and limit your bad memories and you’ll get wherever it is you’re going a lot faster and with less bumps in the road along the way.
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