We need to ask ourselves what are we here for and what have we worked so hard to be here for.

I only get the points because I have team-mates who do the work and put me in the position to get them.

I wouldn't go in a fast food outlet even to use the toilet.

When you're obsessive, like me, searching for something unattainable can become unhealthy ... it's like falling through the air and grabbing at the clouds.

Failing at something is one thing, but Buddhism tells us that it is up to us how we interpret that failure [Buddhism] a philosophy and way of life that resonates with me I identify with it. I agree with so much of the sentiment behind it. I enjoy the liberating effect it's had on me to get back into the game Buddhism, with its concepts of karma and rebirth, have freed me from the twin fears of death and life without rugby, like life, will also come to an end.

For me now, I will continue to focus ever harder on my goal of being the very best I can be with Toulon Rugby Club and continue to embrace and enjoy wherever that path takes me.

I'm not necessarily proud of the World Cups and the grand slams won or lost, the amount of points I scored, this record or that.