People talk about the beauty of the spring, but I can't see it. The trees are brown and bare, slimy with rain. Some are crawling with new purple hairs. And the buds are bulging like tumorous acne, and I can tell that something wet, and soft, and cold, and misshapen is about to be born. And I am turning into a vampire.
Matthew Tobin AndersonI do not know what I regret. I sit with my pen, and cannot find an end to that sentence.
Matthew Tobin AndersonI don't know when they first had feeds. Like maybe, fifty or a hundred years ago. Before that, they had to use their hands and their eyes. Computers were all outside the body. They carried them around outside of them, in their hands, like if you carried your lungs in a briefcase and opened it to breathe.
Matthew Tobin AndersonKeep thinking. You can hear our brains rattling around inside us, like the littler Russian dolls.
Matthew Tobin AndersonA lot of the drive to make narratives came from having to play by myself as a 5- or 6-year-old in the woods.
Matthew Tobin AndersonIf we're going to ask our kids at age 18 to go off to war and die for their country, I don't see any problem with asking them at age 16 to think about what that might mean.
Matthew Tobin AndersonThe sky was as blue as a stupid postcard, and the islands were as green as islands.
Matthew Tobin AndersonOlder teens tend to write to me and say, 'Thank you for not writing down to teenagers.'
Matthew Tobin AndersonThere's an ancient saying in Japan, that life is like walking from one side of infinite darkness to another, on a bridge of dreams. They say that we're all crossing the bridge of dreams together. That there's nothing more than that. Just us, on the bridge of dreams.
Matthew Tobin AndersonAnd I realize that the decision to be human is not one single instant, but is a thousand choices made very day. It is choices we make every second and requires constant vigilance. We have to fight to remain human.
Matthew Tobin AndersonI eat broccoli. I think about the plot. I pace in circles for hours, counter-clockwise, listening to music. I try to think of one detail in the scene I'm about to write that I'm really excited about writing. Until I can come up with that one detail, I pace.
Matthew Tobin AndersonEmpedolces claims that in utero, our backbone is one long solid; and that through the constriction of the womb and the punishments of birth it must be snapped again and again to form our vertebrae; that for the child to have a spine, his back must first be broken
Matthew Tobin AndersonOne of the series I like is D.M. Cornish's 'Monster Blood Tattoo,' in which he creates a whole language. Kids who are reading that are building a language in their heads. There's no real cognitive difference. I think kids are excited by language, and they're not always given credit for that.
Matthew Tobin AndersonThere are times when friendship feels like running down a hill together as fast as you can, jumping over things, spinning around, and you don't care where you're going, and you don't care where you've come from, because all that matters is speed, and the hands holding your hands.
Matthew Tobin AndersonWe Americans are interested only in the consumption of our products. We have no interest in how they are produced, or what happens to them once we discard them, once we throw them away.
Matthew Tobin AndersonI donโt know. Dโyou think? Heโs pretty wide in the chest.โ The girl looked at me, and I was frozen. So I said, โYeah. I work out.โ Violet asked me, โWhat are you? Whatโs your cup size?โ I shrugged and played along. โLike, nine and a half?โ I guessed. โThatโs my shoe size.โ Violet said, โI think heโd like something slinky, kind of silky.โ I said, โAs long as you can stop me from rubbing myself up against a wall the whole time.โ โOkay,โ said Violet, holding her hands up like she was annoyed. โOkay, the chemise last week was a mistake.
Matthew Tobin AndersonTeens are not like the weird, dumb dwarves you have around your house. They are actually you when you were younger.
Matthew Tobin AndersonI miss that time. The cities back then, just after the forests died, were full of wonders, and you'd stumble on them--these princes of the air on common rooftops--the rivers that burst through the city streets so they ran like canals--the rabbits in parking garages--the deer foaling, nestled in Dumpsters like a Nativity.
Matthew Tobin AndersonWe are the nation of dreams. We are seers. We are wizards. We speak in visions. Our letters are like flocks of doves, released from under our hats. We have only to stretch out our hand and desire, and what we wish for settles like a kerchief in our palm. We are a race of sorcerers, enchanters. We are Atlantis. We are the wizard-isle of Mu.
Matthew Tobin AndersonItโs the end. Itโs the end of the civilization. Weโre going down. No, itโs sure not too attractive. Lenticels. I just hope my kids donโt live to see the last days. The things burning and people living in cellars. Violet. The only thing worse than the thought it may all come tumbling down is the thought that we may go on like this forever.
Matthew Tobin AndersonOccasionally people ask me how it is I write different types of things, and my answer to that is it's very natural. You get bored writing one kind of thing all the time.
Matthew Tobin AndersonIt's insulting to believe that teens should have a different kind of book than an adult should.
Matthew Tobin AndersonThere is a power in names. Olakunde told us of ashe-the power which runs through all things, subtle and flexible, which find its most potent expression in human utterance; so that it is a terrible thing to call down imprecations on an enemy, or to wish for anything but good, for what is said out loud is forged into truth.
Matthew Tobin AndersonWhy not write a book which is as sophisticated as a book for an adult, but is about the concerns that teenagers actually have?
Matthew Tobin AndersonCertain elements of teen life that, 10 years ago, were very important to me still, are becoming less so as I get older. I mean, Ive kinda gotten over, I guess Im saying, the fact that I had trouble getting a date for the prom.
Matthew Tobin AndersonI've always enjoyed that kind of thing - thinking about the production of narrative and why it is that when we read a novel, we don't notice the fact that someone who might be very close-mouthed or tight-lipped is perfectly willing to tell us a story in 600 or 700 pages.
Matthew Tobin AndersonI wanted to say something to cheer her up. I had a feeling that cheering her up might be a lot of work. I was thinking of how sometimes, trying to say the right thing to people, itโs like some kind of brain surgery, and you have to tweak exactly the right part of the lobe. Except with talking, itโs more like brain surgery with old, rusted skewers and things, maybe like those things you use to eat lobster, but brown. And you have to get exactly the right place, and youโre touching around in the brain but the patient, she keeps jumping and saying, โOw.
Matthew Tobin AndersonWe must curb ourfury, and allow sadness to diminish, and speak our stories with coolness and deliberation.
Matthew Tobin Anderson...for reading, once begun, quickly becomes home and circle and court and family, and indeed, without narrative, I felt exiled from my own country. By the transport of books, that which is most foreign becomes one's familiar walks and avenues; while that which is most familiar is removed to delightful strangeness; and unmoving, one travels infinite causeways, immobile and thus unfettered.
Matthew Tobin AndersonI completely love music. I used to be the music critic at 'The Improper Bostonian.' It's just something I've always loved very deeply.
Matthew Tobin AndersonI feel like it's hard to get into historical novels where you know what the story is far too well.
Matthew Tobin AndersonโฆItโs like a spiral: They keep making everything more basic so it will appeal to everyone. And gradually, everyone gets used to everything being basic, so we get less and less varied as people, more simple. So the corps make everything even simpler. And it goes on and on.
Matthew Tobin AndersonYou made her apologize for sickness. For her courage. You made her feel sorry for dying.
Matthew Tobin AndersonI am messaging you to say that I love you, and that you're completely wrong about me thinking you're stupid. I always thought you could teach me things. I was always waiting. You're not like the others. You say things that no one expects you to. You think you're stupid. You want to be stupid. But you're someone people could learn from.
Matthew Tobin AndersonOf course, I had my heart broken as a teen. I was desperately in love with myself. Then I found out that I was completely shallow. I haven't spoken to myself since.
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